Quote of the Day

We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same.

- Carlos Castaneda

Masculinity and Femininity

Why we can understand a bar spectrum, but not something like a colour-wheel?
Also can't we think of parallels rather than two opposite ends on a scale?

I felt like in this contemporary (heterosexist) world, we are programmed to understand masculinity and femininity as two extreme oppositions. We are also taught the fact that only the merge of masculine and feminine qualities would create balance in the world, blending the Yin and Yang.

But why can't we have things living and expanding in parallel actions? Rather than two bodies sharing the one same scale and tune around it, we should know that each body can have unlimited amount of scales within themselves, or even colour-wheel like palettes?

Quote of the Day

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

- Jim Morrison

Story | Revenge or Excuses

Is this only another revenge, like the pointless ones which I performed in the past?

Morals are consuming me. I know I should not think about you in metropolitan, you in transfer, and you in memory, while there is another you in far away land. But I cannot stop myself from dividing my concentration on the various, multiple you. I want to be able to intimate to all of you. Yet of course I know I cannot own every piece of you. You belong to the different worlds.

On the other hand, I found a perfectly legal excuse to do this immoral thing. You abandoned me a while back. Why can't I have a little escape tour now?


2009/12/22

Story | Stigma

What do I care the most? I have done unlimited amount of bad things within the past few weeks. Stigma were left forever.

Why why why? What did you do to me? You are like a siren to me, attracting me to spread evilness among the world. I thought and acted out hugely ridiculous things to perform my internal revenge.

Someone save me. I am doing nothing useful but harm to my surrounding. The deep dark tunnel is waiting for me to slide down into. I need to pause or even stop everything before they went out of control, creating huge disasters.

Help.


2009/12/22