Story | Identity Adaptation

Patient.

Coward.

Dominate.

Shy.

Stalker.

Submissive, perhaps?

Awkward.

Quiet.

Careful.

Weird.

Determinant, depends really.

Precise.

Political.

Detailed, selectively.

Independent.

Modest.

Creepy.

Ignorant.

Critical.

Indecisive, again it depends.

2011/04/09

Story | Camouflage of Greyness

I wonder if good people exist? It must have been my problem that I am such a picky depressing bitch and not a softie. But why live in a way where you are compromising? Sometimes it is difficult to draw the line between being oppressed and being ignorantly difficult.

Am I living the wrong way? Am I creating and stirring up all the trouble for myself? Am I a bad person? Am I not good enough?

2011/04/09

Story | Plastic People

It is very frustrating when privileged people do not see social problems - actually, they are probably not privileged as they are in fact victims themselves. They are also suffering from the patriarchy, the pathetic culture. Not dealing with the problem do not mean it will just go away. Denial.

Being critical is not something to look down upon. Although I might make myself less happy as I see and critique the issues of our culture, but at least I realize and know that there are problems, not just ignoring them and pretending to live in utopia.

Wake up. Issues do not solve themselves.

2011/04/09

Story | Sitting

Waiting and waiting. Fifteen minutes? An hour? Half a day?

The smell of pineapple buns, fresh egg rolls, and roasted red barbecue pork... disturbs me. They felt like an important part of growing up, but they are also hated because of the unpleasant attachments behind those memories.

Everything seems so familiar yet different. The same language, the same faces of colour. Yet, I feel like an alien.

It had only been five years. Can 1825 days completely modify a person? Does seeing different parts of the world make them change? Does realizing problem of their own culture turn them into a foreigner?

2011/04/09

Story | Cycles of Twos and Threes

Two years. Three years. Cycles of twos and threes run around, replacing overlapping overwriting each other. Nothing remains the same. The same kind of illusion bursts. Maybe a miracle will drop upon one day? Perhaps prosperity will be achieved? Give me something good. Please. Pass on any potentials to me, I beg you. Life is boring, I need something interesting.


2011/04/09

Story | Perimeter Lines

Everything revolves around negotiation, negotiating the boundary created by various members collectively. Everyone has their own comfort limit. Also there is the influence of discourse introduced and exposed to individuals. Endless cycles of filtration, of knowledge and narratives, run and process and demarcate boundaries.

2011/04/06

Story | River

The trip had inspired me, I think. It made me get back in touch, once again, with my emotions. I don't know how this happens, but I did suppressed my emotions for the past few months...

It is very interesting and exciting to experience the roller coaster of feelings, running up the hill and shoot right down to the endless bottom of the valley. You never know what will be coming up next. Constant surprises.

Things have twisted around in 3 years... You became the old me, while I transformed into the old you. Yes, you were shocked. Yes, I was shocked. It just... made me felt very heavy yet light, and unable to articulate anything.

It was nice seeing you. Now you have your own space looking upon the flowing river. You seems lovesick and very happy. Really, I'm very glad.

2011/03/21