Story | Transformation of Dreams

Funny funny funny.

Last night I had a dream about you sneaking into my house, surprising me in the bedroom with a hug. You had convinced your parents about your decisions, and finally came here for me. Even my parents knew about it, just not me.

Tonight, you told me we should just be friends. Nothing else. What? Are you serious? Did I push you too hard?

But yes, things that happened in dreams do happen. Except most of the time they occur in the opposite way. Like positive will turn out to be negative.

2010/03/10

Story | I know you hope this is not true

You should of expected this. You knew it all along. Didn't you learn from experience? This would never last. It won't go beyond the ambiguous stage. Stupid idiot. Why can't you just stop yourself from doing so? You know it would cause trouble. Stabbing gazillions of pins into the little red heart. I mean, HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW THIS? I don't feel sorry for you, you stupid moron. Trying to game in the world hurts while you can't afford to take whatever the consequences are. You knew it at first that you are not this type of people. But you still stuck your entire body into the mess. Poor you. But I still don't have any sympathy for you. YOU ARE STUPID to get yourself into this type of trouble. Are you really prone to them? They are bad for you! WAKE UP. Where is the smart rational emotionless girl that I used to see everyday? Common. You are do better. You are a desirable attractive person, wanted by people. It's just... you haven't discover them yet. Spend more time finding the nice persons, and not indulge yourself into things you can never get. I can only offer you a hug but that's it. See the reality.


2010/03/10

Story | Sponge that was made out of glass

It hurts a lot.

It feels like a big sharp knife jamming right into the center of my beating heart, with huge drops of lemon juice and vinegar dripping onto the cut...

I wish I can take everything lightly, and let go of things I cannot control.
But I am programmed to function in jealousy, under the constant disturbance of imaginary enemies.

I need to calm my heart. Freezing it to protect it from all harms.


2010/03/10

Revenges might be positive afterall.

Sometimes I wonder if I did all of this just for the purpose of revenge.
But I don't even know what or who am I revenging against... myself perhaps?

Actually this is okay. The whole event or incident might started off as some sort of revenge, as a coping skill to make yourself feel better, but eventually it will become a part of an adventure in your life time. Experiences rule.

So where ever life brings you, it should be at least interesting, if not eye opening.
Enjoy the moment and live out the best.

Quote + Art of the Day

So stop worrying about things that are beyond your control.
Work on how to cope, how to make yourself feel better, or how to alternate the situation with your own effort.